So a reader asked me was I afraid of commitment, without a second thought I had said no. She was surprised by this answer, as young dudes usually try to avoid commitment like they do baldness, debt and the flu. She asked for a particular reason, she was seeing someone and everything was going okay except there hasn’t been much effort on his part to eliminate the gray area and make it official. “He’s afraid of commitment” she explains, he’s been burned in the past and is cautious about doing it again. I had nothing. And by nothing I mean I had a suspicion but I didn’t feel like speaking on it at the moment. That suspicion being he’s probably more than likely full of shit. I never placed much stock in the being afraid of commitment because titles don’t breed feelings, he is just as likely to get hurt by this girl she’s dating routinely than someone he’s actually yoked himself to. Hell, I would say that it hurts less failing a relationship than being jilted by a never was. I’m biased. So of course what followed is the cliche question:
Why are men afraid of commitment?
Now, there’s some men who are just unabashedly self aware, they don’t feel as though they would be a good mate, they’ve been hurt, they inflict hurt, they don’t trust themselves to take that leap. But in her beau’s case, and I would say they aren’t afraid of commitment, they’re afraid of the “no”.
No is rejection, no is finality, no strips always the blissful ignorance that is enjoying the ride and seeing where things go. No has consequences, suddenly the spoils and privileges you enjoyed as a “friend” cease to exist. Those all day conversations are now “hi, wyd, and thats good”. Its like coming into work one Monday and your badge doesn’t work. (Which is terrifying, every time.)
No shines accountability on the other side as well, there is no more being led on, no credence lent to your doing the wrong thing with the right intention. Now you know this is a road to nowhere, there’s no hope to hide behind. You’re left with two choices; continue down this road to nowhere or just turn around and head back. The reality sets in that you were never “friends” or you were never “talking”, you both just, were. Its a tough pill to swallow. If only a return to bliss was possible…but its been spoiled forever. (Well unless someone changes their mind)
The ignorance is addictive sometimes. Don’t ask questions you can’t process the answers to, keep telling yourself who knows what the future may hold when you know deep down it looks very bleak. In her case, she just accepted that he’s afraid of commitment and he’ll come around. I would beg to differ but maybe I’m wrong on this one and he truly is just afraid of a being hurt in a relationship with the person he’s been dating for months already and seemingly has feelings for. Or something.